So what do you do when you start to lose confidence in your novel?
I got some good feedback when I went to my local writer’s group but as well as pointing out a few things that I hadn’t thought of it put some doubt in my mind about the whole direction the novel was taking. The more I think about it, the more I’m not sure how this novel should pan out and it’s not the way I planned it.
So I’m now left with a stranded novel and no idea if I can finish it. If the plan isn’t working anymore should I write a new plan? Or should I dump the whole thing? This is worse than writer’s block, it’s paralysing my thoughts rather than my writing.
I’ve got a small plan for something I want to write for NaNoWriMo and part of me just wants to plough on with that and forget the troublesome novel for a while. But that feels like defeatism and not the way a proper writer behaves. A proper writer would beat that darn novel into shape and make it submit to my powerful will. But I’m struggling to feel like a proper writer over this. I feel out of my depth, confused and troubled.
So I face a weekend of worrying about what to do and probably doing nothing but worry. I can’t even bear to look at what I’ve written or the plan. That’s how much I feel disconnected with this whole novel at the moment. Here’s hoping some distance and deep thought will give me much needed perspective … and maybe a bolt of lightening will strike and the solution will present itself.